I have never struggled this much with losing someone in our family. But since we lost you it hasn’t got much easier and it’s been 2 years now. I wish you didn’t miss so much and it still stings to think about it.

It’s hard knowing each day we spend with Baby Bear is another day we don’t get to spend with you. Every time something big happens in our life, your one person we can’t tell. I never realized how close we were until you left us, I guess the saying ‘you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone’ is so true.

I know your in a better place with the man you love and your family but your family here love and miss you. I guess we used all our time with you and it’s now their time to be with you. I just wish you could have met Baby bear just once, I wish I had a photo of you together.

I know you would of loved the little person he has become. You liked to tell everyone you weren’t a huge fan of children but you loved seeing Baby bears scans and knowing what was happening in my pregnancy. You was so sure you knew what sex he was, I just wish you would have told someone before you left us, or just held on a few more hours to meet him. It hurts me that your missing him grow up, he reminds me of you sometimes with the things he does (wanting to eat a snack as dinners being served is one of many)

Losing you on the day Baby bear was born but I want to thank you for giving me something to focus on during my labor. I know now I was too late but at the time, focusing on trying to have Baby bear in time for you to meet him kept me going. It gave me something to keep going and not give up. I could of so many time but you kept me strong and I will always thank you for that.

I will try my hardest to always make sure Baby bear knows who you are. There is a picture of you in his bedroom to watch over him at night, but I know you are always watching over him. His very own guardian angel always.

We love and miss you always xx